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Running in Circles

I know it's been over a month since my last post. I have been running around like crazy... and I have nothing to show for it. I've gone through the interview process at two new companies, made it to the final round, and not gotten the job. I have another interview at a third company on Thursday. This new place is somewhere I've wanted to work since my college days. I'm not holding my breath, I've been burned too many times, but I am hopeful. The location is a bit far from where I live now, but it's not bad. I leave an hour before shift at ThinkGeek and always end up early, and I think my hour early routine would serve me well at this place, too. But, we'll have to see. There's no point in getting my hopes up any more.

I feel really defeated when it comes to employment. I've always sort of fallen into jobs. ThinkGeek is the first job I got by going after it on my own. I have nearly 10 years office experience (in only two companies, I'm not a job hopper), a university degree, a professional certificate.... The hell, you know? My office jobs I got through temp agencies in temp to hire situations. I don't want to have to go through that again. I hated being in the office, doing the job of a company employee, being expected to act like a company employee, being treated like a company employee, but not actually being one. There was this constant, weird feeling of not belonging and being an outsider. It was like everyone was playing pretend. Then, a year or more in, you get the great honor of being hired by the company. It's treated like some big reward, but nothing changes. You do the same job, for maybe a token of more pay. And, to be honest, neither company was something I fully believed in. I was glad to be rid of both companies. I got downsized at the first place and gave notice at the second place. Then I celebrated.

ThinkGeek I adore. I love my coworkers. I enjoy the customers. The atmosphere is great. But, the pay is too low and there aren't enough hours available. If there were more hours the lack of pay wouldn't be so bad. If the pay was higher the lack of hours wouldn't be so bad. There's no real room for advancement, either. If I can, I've love to keep it as a second job. But, ThinkGeek is being good to me and I don't want to leave them.

So, there's been lots of movement on the job front, but not progress what so ever. Frustrating.

As far as my exercise goes I had my second highest mileage month of the year (18.8)! AND I didn't not doing any app-hacking. They were all intentional miles! I'm hoping in July I can beat June's miles. I'd also love to build up the nerve to participate in some gym classes. I have no problem going to the gym and hitting the treadmill or stationary bike, but I can't bring myself to try a group class. That, however, is a topic for another blog.

I have not lost any weight, but I have lost almost two inches off my waist.

I guess I have miles and a slightly smaller waist to show for what's been going on. I just wish there was more progress on every front.

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