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Still Optimistic

I’m trying to be more real with myself. I’ve been keeping a food journal with little notes like “said no to bunt cake!” and “walked past the donuts!” and one “Husband’s birthday celebration.”

This last week was rough. There was a lot going on in not a lot of time. I was working, dog sitting (which takes up my lunch break), and babysitting, and it was my husband’s birthday- and then, you know, trying to run a house. I made some poor decisions. There was a trip to CiCis. There was a frozen pizza for dinner. But, even with how full my calendar was, I made fewer poor decisions than I have in just a normal week.

Even with the pizza and junk food, I ate this week- I still made more good decisions than I did in a normal week.

I’m okay with that.

And, the good food choices that I have been making are making it easier to keep going. We had two birthday dinners for my husband (one friends, one family) and I only had one cupcake and declined the cake at the second dinner. I bought a couple of candy bars on impulse today at the store and even though they are sitting right in front of me on my coffee table, I have no desire to eat them.

I BOUGHT MY FAVORITE DAMN CANDY AND I DON’T WANT IT.

What they hell kind of witchcraft is this?

And also.

Please keep doing that voodoo that you do so well!

I’m five days away from my first kick boxing class and I’m still excited. It is helping me keep goals in mind. At the grocery store, I made sure to get healthy food options that are easy to make so if I’m sleepy or feeling lazy I have good options. I have veggies and hummus for work lunches, fresh fruit for snacks, beans, sprouted bread, and sunflower butter.

With kickboxing on Friday and work every day between now and then I’m hoping to be able to stick to good choices.
Healthy eating leads to more healthy eating.

Working out leads to healthy eating.

Healthy eating and working out leads to health.

In other news, I’m working on my application for a promotion at the book store. It’s at a location that is way closer to my house and…. drum roll…. It’s really close to the kickboxing gym! If all this pans out I could have work and my gym within a ten-minute drive from each other. And on the way home from the gym and potential work? A farmer’s market! So, if I’m tried and want easy food and don’t have anything at home? There’s an entire store full of healthy options right on the way home!

It feels like too much may be falling into place for all this to be real! It all feels too good to be true.

I’m trying not to allow myself to psych myself out over this.

One thing at a time.

Good food choices are here at home.

I’m excited about the gym.

I’d like to get this promotion.

But, while all three go very well together. They don’t depend on one another to work out individually.

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