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Blogtober #12: Love


So today’s topic is love. I’ m not sure which love to talk about. I have a romantic love, my husband. I have familiar love. I have objective love. But I think the true goal of love in self love. Love of self and situation leads to true and complete contentment. I love who I have become over the years. I look back on me in junior high, high school, and college and see a me-in-progress. Who I am now is an almost complete me.

I am the sum of my experiences. I am made up of who I love and who loves me in return: My parents and sister who loved me first, my husband, my pets, my friends. I am people whom I respect and respect me in return: coworkers and acquaintances. It has taken me over thirty years to come to accept, be proud of, and love who I am.
Do I have space to grow? For sure.

Will I become more? Oh, yeah.

Am where I am supposed to be right now? Of course.

I love and accept me for who I have become, who I am and who I will be. I have not become whole or complete, but I am as far along as I can be.

Stepping back and appreciating what you have can make you happier than ever. I know that the universe will take care of me. I do everything I can with what I have and know that there’s only so much I can do. I can work as many hours as I can to pay off my bills. I can open the windows and turn off the lights to save power. I can show my dog that I love him. I can make sure my husband knows how much I love him through word and action. I can make sure I tell my family I love them whenever I see or speak with them.

But none of that is true unless I love myself. None of that is true unless I can look at myself and say “yup, that’s the best I can do right now.”
It is not about having everything you ever wanted. It’s about looking at what you having now and saying “this is good.”

It’s not having what you want. It’s wanting what you need.

There is more out there for me. I am working towards it.

I have a loving family. I love my husband. I love the family he has brought me. I appreciate what we have while striving toward what we want.
I love who I was. I love who that has enabled me to be. And I like to think I’ll love who I eventually become.
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