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Blogtober #7: Goals

I have a love/hate relationship with goals.

I love to set them and work towards them, but I am bad at actually achieving them. When it’s something that outside forces have a play in, when there’s something else there to help push me, I can do it. I got good grades all throughout my schooling. I am a good employee that goes out of my way, puts in the overtime, and doesn’t shy away from hard work. I frequently become the go-to person for a special project that needs to get done.

But when it comes to something that is just on my shoulders and doesn’t effect anyone else, I have a hell of a time sticking to it. When I was working part time and had all the time in the world all day most days it was easy to make my goals part of the routine, but as soon as things got shaken up the goals were the first to go. I make token efforts, but man can I make some excuses. I keep thinking I’ll do it tomorrow, or get back into it next week (everyone knows Monday is the best day to start over on anything), or today is different because of reasons.

That’s part of why I’m trying out Blogtober, really. I want to get back into the swing of writing regularly, even if it’s just for half and hour a night. Right now, though, I’m hoping I can just manage to finish the challenge. It’s eight days in and I’m already behind.

But damned if I wasn’t excited to take on the new challenge.

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